I was thinking about how religion and knitting are alike earlier and have decided to post my thoughts...they may or may not apply to you, so feel free to pass my comments off as poppycock.
As I continue to grow more and more confident in the fact that I'm a male knitter, I knit in public far more frequently. This, of course, leads to the inevitable conversations with strangers or co-workers or friends about why I knit and how I knit and what it is that I'm knitting.
As this happens, I have begun to feel there is a strong comparison between my religious beliefs, my habit of knitting, how I approached both, and how people perceive both.
Starting out, you approach any religious tradition and knitting with the same kinds of emotions: curiosity, hunger, confusion, apprehension, and maybe even excitement. Your teacher (even if it is yourself) tries to give you a low down on the basics. These are the general precepts. This is what wisdom, morality, and salvation mean. Here are all the sizes that needles come in. And here are only a few of the many ways to cast on.
It seems the more you learn, however, the more questions you have. Some of the dogma and styles you are instructed in just don't fit with what you feel is right or good. This belief goes against what you feel is right. This manner of cast on seems too slow and sloppy.
As time passes, you understand the inner workings of this religious tradition and knitting with much greater clairty. They preach equality while demanding you ostricize the "wrong." The pattern says to begin decreasing on row 32 when that will clearly make the project 2" too short at the least. So it is at this point in time when you begin to realize that there is no one that has a monopoly on the truth.
You find yourself questioning whether religion and knitting are really for you. With the infinite varieties of beliefs and styles, it's almost TOO overwhelming. You think of shelving your Bible and your needles. Fortunately, though, they've become too much a part of your life and you reconsider your decision.
You embark on a fevered quest to learn all you can about the religious traditions and styles and brands of needles that you were told from the beginning were "wrong" or "inferior." Slowly but surely, you realize that your religious tradition is some odd conglomeration of dogma and precepts from many traditions and that your style and preferences in knitting span across the board. You grow ever more confident and continue to adapt and change as you find it necessary.
That's when you take it all public. You mention you have spirit guides to someone or you take out your needles on the subway. In either case, you are likely to be met with looks and queries that make you nervous and sweat. Your voice cracks as you explain why you believe what you do. Your hands stick to the yarn and needles as you openly discuss the passion you hold for the fiber arts.
Regardless, the confused and belittling comments and looks eventually hold little weight. Because the more confident you become, the less people view you as a freak...or, at the very least, the less you notice them looking at you with those disparaging eyes of theirs.
Your quest to discover who you are, what you believe, what yarn you love most, what brand of needles you prefer, what garments you enjoy making, and where you'll go when you pass on is a never-ending, ever-changing quest. Self-discovery may be frightening... Knitting may be intimidating... But when all is said and done, you can succeed at both and be better for it.