So, I know this is completely self-glorifying, but I feel like all of y'all are my friends! I've been on here for a while, and you have all helped me with a bunch, whether ya know it or not! Thanks for that!
So, 23 kind of sucked. It was hit or miss -- either really good, or REALLY bad. I have been eagerly awaiting 24, hoping that it brings good things (and much more prosperous knitting! Maybe discipline and focus...)
Anyway, I want to start out this year as honestly as possible...and I'm not exactly sure how to go about that. Namely, telling my family that I have a boyfriend. He's fantastic! I mean, if it were just me, then it wouldn't be an issue living a double life. At least, is hasn't been that unbearable for 23 years. Now, I can't imagine hiding that part of myself! He makes me feel alive, he makes me feel like I'm breathing again! He makes me want to paint in bright colors -- how can I deny that?
Please forgive me for bringing this up on this site, but I'm sure others have had to deal with this! Me and my mom have a great relationship, but being gay isn't something that's acceptable. It just isn't. I tries talking to her once, and it wasn't good. Lots of stress, lots of prayer. I mean, it's not like I haven't tried that before! I can be a Christian and be in love with the most amazing, fantastic boy in the world! ::sigh:: It's just really weighing on my heart that I have to keep such a joyous part of my life under wraps.