Putting things together after falling apart

Hey gents,

Ben here, rising from the dead.

It's been a crazy summer and fall and I'm a bit of a wreck from it all, but I'm glad that I've come into a bit more time to get back to the world of knitting. I've missed it greatly.

I would regale you with the details, but I've recently had it illuminated to me that it is in the retelling that I keep the stories alive--stories that are likely best forgotten if they cannot be retold in a more positive light. Part of this lesson was in learning that the aramaic word for "to forgive" also means "to untie", so I suppose you could say I'm going through a bit of spiritual frogging so as to re-knit a few things into somewhat more "groovy" manifestation, to use the theological terminology.

This will be the first of many posts that will hopefully get many of you bored with me, but it's also a first step for me out of a place a bit darker than the one I've been hoping for. My goal is to settle soon into a period of intense study in knitting and to blog about and share my experiences, get feedback, swallow some criticism, and really step up the knitting.

There's a bit of a countdown, though, as I have a few projects for xmas and otherwise that will be finished before the study begins. For now, the updates will be to document progress on these remaining projects as they near completion!

They are as follows:

Kumo modified (to suit my cultural knowledge and taste, for me, tahki cotton on size 6's):
--need to weave in ends on body pieces
--need to finish belt, which has been changed to tweed stitch instead of the flimsy garter stitch one they recommend.
--Need to pickup lapel stitches and knit lapel
--Need to dupestitch the designs on the chest flaps
(I've been working on this for two years. It needs to be finished. SO much stockinette....)

Forest Canopy Shawl in Briar Rose Sea Pearl, size 5's:
--Setup finished.... now for the rest of the shawl...

Fingerless gloves (modified from Knitty knucks), DB Cashmerino Red+Black on size 5 dpns:
--.....need to cast on....

Big hugs and hearty warmth to you all!

Keep on stitchin!


albert's picture

Welcome back, Ben; you've been missed!

Joe-in Wyoming's picture

Good to see you back, Ben. Looking forward to your updates. -- Books, knitting, cats, fountain pens...Life is Good.

Books, knitting, cats, fountain pens...Life is Good.

Kerry's picture

Welcome back.

Asplund's picture

Good to see you here again!


It will make you stronger in the longrun....nice to see you back!

ronhuber's picture

Glad you're back and I am looking forward to reading about your projects.

PhilNmtl's picture

Welcome back Ben.......................

I am always struck by the possibilities of this site, and our craft, to bring many of us a little more out of the dark and `a little more into the light. Thanks for even you brief reflections.....and thanks for coming back.

btw I did the forest canopy shawl a while back for a friend. Its one of the few pics that I have posted. I loved the project and am very fond of the friend that I knit itfor. I travelled to see her a few weeks ago. Her short term memory is limited. When we talked about her memory, it sent the two of us searching for tissues. She told me that she had been checking a piece of paper all day to make sure that when I appeared in the doorway that she woud remember my name - we have known each other for many years. I asked her if there are memories that are more constant for her than details like names. It was her response to that that did us both in. "Even if I can't remember your name, I only have to look at you and know that we have a relationship." Later we looked at her knitting and then I asked about the whereabouts of her shawl. With some effort we found it and she was thrilled all over again to have it :-)


ManMadeKnits's picture

Phil, that was an awesome story!!! Thanks for sharing!

I'd love to keep getting gifts anew like that!

"The only sin is mediocrity." --Martha Graham

"The only sin is mediocrity." --Martha Graham

rjcb3's picture

Welcome back!

Missed you...good to know you're still knitting...

"Knit on with confidence and hope, through all crises."

...it's what's been keeping a few of us going through this summer just the same...

(((BIG HUG))) 'cause you need it...everyone does now and again, for certain.

'can't wait to see what you've got on the needles...and what's come off of them.

Interesting that you bring up the terms "forgive" and "untie" -- It's kind of the way of life for a knitter. Is it any wonder we knitters only make the strongest of fabrics with mere loops and nary a knot...and if a knot does comes along in the skein while working, it's untied, untangled, separated, freed... it's handled swiftly so to carry on with knitting...so to finish another beautiful creation.


chipsir's picture

Just visiting this site has often kept me from the dark places, glad you found your way back

thairapist's picture

I never seem to get to this site enough but your post has moved me to become more connected with the MWK community.
Phil's post made my husband who does caregiving shed a tear and choked me up.
After many years of knitting and taking breaks I have now gotten to a point where knitting is a constant friend to me. Each garment is a relationship that hopefully last for a while. Ending is always a sad time. Going to the yarn store and feeling , feasting with my eyes and smelling is a delicious time of possibilities. Planning and designing are times of searching and working. When the pattern is designed and the work begins it is like the car is packed for a long trip. I start and i never know where the journey will lead but i love the journey.
Ben, thanks for inspiring me to see more about my experience in knitting.
I look forward to your posts.

Joe-in Wyoming's picture

Amen to that, David. -- Books, knitting, cats, fountain pens...Life is Good.

Books, knitting, cats, fountain pens...Life is Good.

New York Built's picture

As always, Ben, you are being thoughtful, insightful, intelligent, responsible and a great writer. Thank the gods, you counter-balance all that stuff with being a good man...albeit, a randy good man...LOL

"If I have a little extra money, I buy yarn, fiber books, and knitting supplies. I get food with what's left over."

Every person I encounter teaches me more about myself. Without whom not.

teejtc's picture

Glad you're back!!

And looking forward to meeting in in Real Life in a couple of weeks!

Grace and Peace,

mrossnyc's picture

welcome back!